Time passed and treatments ended. My dirty blonde hair decided to return as jet black hair. With the exception of every three month check-ups, we were trying to return to normal. It wasn’t until 18 months after my last radiation treatment, I was diagnosed again. A follow-up mammogram noted a new area in the same breast. There was nothing even remotely normal about this. It was not a reoccurrence but a second primary tumor had grown. The OSU Tumor Board decided since my case was so abnormal they would convene and come up with a plan. Lumpectomy, Bilateral Mastectomy with all nodes removed, Total Hysterectomy with ovaries removed, chemo again, and 7 years of Tamoxifen and Arimidex. Once again, our friends and family completely rallied around us and our children and helped more than we can ever repay them. I eventually decided seven years later to have reconstructive surgery. Multiple scares have occurred over the last 16 years….bone, liver, lung, brain, nodes. Each is met with extreme anxiety and fear because you see I can’t answer why any of this has happened. My genetic testing was completely normal. I can’t even provide a reason for the chaos.
My children now range in ages from 26 down to 17 and I have 2 AMAZING grandsons. There are days when I wonder what in the world happened – we seem so dysfunctional compared to other families. My family is all of the following (at different times): emotional, fearful, impulsive, laid back, anxious, depressed, kind, successful, driven, controlling, passive, positive, negative, faithful, hopeful, appreciative and above all else - resilient. I recently looked up the definition of normal: the usual, average, or typical state or condition. Breast cancer established the NEW normal for us.
I am the over-bearing Mom and Grandmother (GaGa as they call me) – I am so thankful that I am here to celebrate every single success and trial with my children, family and friends…..all because of a piece of advice a nursing instructor gave to our class. Take care of yourselves, listen to your bodies, and follow your gut.”
Christa is the Manager of our Wilson Health Medical Group Ob/Gyn and Pediatric practices. She is a 16 year breast cancer survivor.